You came out with it. It was heavy on you. "Does being attracted to someone of the same sex mean I'm gay?" Of course not! I'm attracted to lots of men. That's why they are my friends.
Your confusion comes when sexual feelings coincide with thoughts of admiration. But sexual passions are always happening inside us - kind of like background noise. Now if at the moment, we find ourselves naturally attracted to someone, even of our own gender, and we happen to experience a hormonal rush, our minds will make a sexual association.
Remember the story of the scientist who raised baby ducks. They bonded to him, even though he wasn't their "normal" duck-mother.
Our sexuality instinct can get cross-bonded like that. Like the energy inside a wall socket: it will charge what-ever gets plugged in. But that doesn't mean we're gay.
